Tuesday, April 13, 2010

jilly:NICU rockstar

after the roller coaster ride of our adoption process my friend arin sent me a verse from ephesians on the day lucy was born...the day i held her in my arms for the very first time - 

'Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever!' (ephesians 3:20-21)

this same verse immediately came to mind today when i heard the news that jill (who has survived in the womb for the past 12 weeks with little to no fluid and was born 10 weeks early) was taken off the ventilator less than 24 hours after making her debut in this world!  
let me emphasis the magnitude of this - 
y'all know i don't use uppercase letters very often...but this is more than uppercase worthy...this is MIRACULOUS.  
we have prayed fervently over the past months that jill's lungs would be strengthened and developed and be able to stand on their own once she was born.  this was the biggest fear that we all had...a very real fear...that she would not be able to breath.  {if you have not already read megan's beautifully articulated entry on her caring bridge site about psalm 150:6 ('let everything that has breath praise the lord!') you should go do that now.}  

today i sat in awe, with tears streaming down my face (shocking, right?), as i listened to jill's nicu doctor explain to me and megan that we are witnessing 'best case scenario'.  he was very thorough, outlined some of the risks that are still out there, and explained many important things (1/2 of which i can not remember now) but more than anything i will not forget that he used the words 'miracle' and 'blessing' more than once.  

in my conversations with God about jill i have always asked that he work miracles.  
one time when we thought megan was in labor i even asked him to reverse it...stop the contractions, close her cervix back up...seriously...that's how much confidence i have had in God in all of this.

i always followed my requests for miracles with a request that He would be magnificently glorified in mighty ways.  part of my job right now is to point to HIM so that others would see his glory and witness his faithfulness to the canady family and to those of us who love them.  as we walk through this process day by day it is easy to forget that the prognosis for this baby girl was very grim not so long ago.  what has happened over the past 10 weeks IS miraculous and fills my heart full with gratitude and love to a heavenly Father whose strength is made perfect in our weakness and whose compassion and generosity towards us knows no bounds...to Him be the glory...

since the day i found out about megan's pregnancy and the risks surrounding it God has been using this child to transform me.  today when i stuck my hand in her little pod and felt her tiny fingers wrap around mine i knew that i was on holy ground...  
i prayed a prayer of thanksgiving - thank you God for allowing me to see and touch and HEAR this precious child that i have prayed for for so long...

{P.S. - for those of you who have labored through my wordiness and random thoughts wondering - 'where the heck is the information in all of this?!?!?  i just wanted a simple update!!'...i apologize...here's a few things i learned today that i'll pass along...(1) we can expect jill to be in the NICU for a couple of months but depending on her progress it could be more or less (2) megan will be home by the end of the week (3) megan's amazing mama arrived tonight and will be here helping out and loving on them for a while (4) you can pray specifically for jill's lungs, intestines, brain, and eyes...these are all at-risk in preterm babies}