Tuesday, November 16, 2010

front row seat

as i was driving into work this morning i heard a question posed on the radio station i was listening to:
'parents are often proud of their kids.  but what makes you proud of your parents?'

i was fascinated as i listened to call after call of folks who shared stories of the ways that they had witnessed their parents overcoming struggles in their lives that ultimately led to redemption and restoration.  i could hear and feel God's glory revealed in these stories...many of which were told through tears.  stories of failed marriages, lost jobs, terminal illnesses...

this is what made children proud of their parents...
the authentic demonstration of God's transforming power in their less than perfect life.  
the admonition that they are weak and He is strong.  wow...fascinating...

it reminded me of a great book i've been reading -
Parenting Beyond Your Capacity: Connect Your Family to a Wider Community (The Orange Series)

in this book one of the authors, reggie joinier, says this:"God is at work telling a story of restoration and redemption through your family. No matter what your family looks like or how limited your capacity might be, you can cooperate with whatever God desires to do in your heart so your children will have a front-row seat to the grace and goodness of God."

last week was a tough week for me as a mom.  i was home alone with the kids and we were all SICK.  we are also going through a lot of transitions as a family right now and that puts added stress on everyone.  

i've gotten in the habit of stopping in the midst of the craziness of a day and getting down on my knees and asking God for help.  even if everyone around me is crying.  even if there is something boiling over on the stove.  even if one of my children is covered in food from head to toe.  i stop, i get on my knees, and i start praying out loud for peace or for patience or for  understanding...really just pleading with God that my weakness would be replaced with his strength...and RIGHT NOW please.  

i think my kids sometimes think in crazy.  especially on weeks like these when i am trying to get the words out in the midst of sobbing.  
my 2 year old comes over and stands in front of me saying - 'mommy - you sad?'.  'yes,baby, i'm sad but i'm asking God for help.'  
i don't know exactly what is going through her little mind.  
sometimes she hugs me.  sometimes she proceeds to throw another temper tantrum.  sometimes she breaks out into 'God our Father' {this is my favorite}.  
whatever is going through her mind i hope that she really is getting a front row seat to God's transformation of my far-from-perfect life.  i hope what she sees doesn't just make her proud one day but I hope that it makes her BELIEVE that our savior can transform her life just as she has seen him transform mine.

{for more parenting wisdom from reggie joiner and the rethink group visit one of my favorite sites - orange parents}