Friday, January 21, 2011

rough day

remember that comment i made on the last post about how i know there will be rough days...blah da blah da blah...
well...honeymoon's over.  today is officially a rough day.
i don't have any friends here in johnson city yet so i'm taking this opportunity during naptime to lament to y'all...hope you don't mind.  thank goodness for staying connected in blog world, right?  any words of encouragement or tidbits of wisdom and humor would be much appreciated.  {please refrain from anything like 'you are officially the worst mother in the world'...it may send me over the edge...}
here's the deal: 
moving is stressful.  having 2 kids under 3 is stressful.  starting a new job {as wonderful as it may be} is stressful.  having your dogs in freak-out panic mode 24/7 because they are in new surroundings is stressful.  having your 2 kids under 3 wake up 30 minutes into their naps because your freaking out dogs are barking continuously...you guessed it - stressful.  i could go on.  you get my drift.  combine all of these things and you and your family may become one giant stressball.
notice i said 'may' become one giant stressball.  we have a little one going at the moment but i am determined not to let it get any bigger.  i may have lost a few battles today and not minded my mama manners {especially when lucy dumped her entire cup of juice all over the playroom floor and down into the vents...ughhhh} but i am clinging to this promise...
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed,
   for his compassions never fail. 
They are new every morning;
   great is your faithfulness. 
I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion;
   therefore I will wait for him.”

Lamentations 3
and so i find my glimmer of hope.  instead of choosing frustration and defeat i choose joy and victory.  instead of the above laundry list of stressors i am shifting my focus.  because these statements are equally true:
i have an amazing, talented husband with a new job custom-made for him.  i have 2 beautiful healthy children that provide regular comic relief {case in point - lucy asked for 'boogers' for lunch today}.  i have an awesome new house and the ability to 'nest' as i turn it into my home.  i have precious new neighbors who sometimes make me feel like we've moved to 'pleasantville'.  my best friend meg is coming to visit next week {and i know she would come today if i really needed her to}.  again - i could go on...
so despite the fact that i am typing this post with one eye closed {because lucy jabbed me in the eye and dislocated my contact during the major tantrum she threw just before naptime...and i still haven't found the box with my glasses and contacts}...despite all that...
i choose joy...and when i do, it's easy to see it all around me...
ahhhh...talking to you guys always makes me feel better.  now if you could please pray for a 3 hour naptime for my kids today...