Thursday, November 10, 2011

one more decaffeinated post

so here's the truth about my blog posts...a lot of the time i feel inspired to write about something and it all seems to come together pretty well.  i use my small windows of writing time to type something fresh from my heart to my fingertips.  a few quick edits and i feel good about publishing it into the great beyond.  once my post hits the web i am hopeful that my words will resonate with at least one or two of you folks out there.  it's the reason i write...
and then there are posts like my last one...the caffeine one...
i have to admit - i hesitated to hit 'publish'.  
it was late and my words seemed...well...too 'wordy'.  the whole thing needed some tweaking.  and plus...who cares about my battle with caffeine anyway?  i was tired but alert enough to feel a nudging to just go for it...
     ...unedited and wordy...  
as i hit the orange button i whispered a silent prayer that somehow my words wouldn't be wasted and that there would be a truth in there that someone else needed to uncover.


the next day i hopped on facebook to find that my post had been re-posted by a friend who was up at 4am that morning after a late afternoon coffee.  she was feeling yucky, couldn't sleep and decided to check my blog.  imagine her surprise when she saw the title 'caffeine-free me'.  imagine my surprise when i read her comment and the dozens of other ones that my post and her re-post prompted that day.  
hmmmm...


i'm so grateful to God in moments like those.  not because i experience more 'traffic' in my quiet little blog world but because he takes my small, imperfect efforts and uses them in big, important ways.  who would have thought a poorly written post about me giving coffee and tea the boot would have had such a significant impact on so many other people.  the lesson for me...
it's not about me.
it's not about how ethereally my words flow or how thoughtfully they are pruned.  it's about taking the truth he pours into my heart and being faithful to share it with others.  the rest is up to Him.


the truth is - the caffeine thing is really big for me.  it seemed so simple and silly but it's not.  i feel better physically, emotionally and spiritually.  i used to think that a strong cup of coffee or a gigantor cup of sweet tea was a great tool to sharpen my mind and make me more productive on days when i was dragging.  i've come to realize that {for me at least} that was a lie.  the truth is that once i stopped relying on this drug i have felt more freedom and energy than i have in years.  here's the proof...
despite my sweet husband being gone more days than he has been home the past couple of weeks i have managed to keep my cool with the kids {read: no crazy fits of rage}, stay on top of my responsibilities at work, and fit in these fun activities {which i actually enjoyed and didn't get stressed out over}...

 {trip to the local pumpkin patch}


{semi-homemade halloween costumes...yee haw!}



{actually completing one of the many projects i have 'pinned'}


{whipping up some healthy - and yummy - pumpkin pancakes}


{pulling off a fun b-day celebration for my favorite 2 year old}


{super cute cookies courtesy of my friend jen at milk and sugar cookie company}


i would love to hear how simple {yet pretty darn difficult} changes in your own life have made a big difference...
remember - God wants to use your stories to encourage others too...