Friday, March 8, 2013

it's race time!

i have a tendency to live like i run...
     ...gobbling up air.
     ...refusing to pace myself.
     ...feeling the pain that comes when your heart and lungs try to catch up with your legs.
     ...avoiding anything {including water breaks} that might slow me down.

these aren't necessarily the best strategies for running or for living.

and they are all things i will have to contend with tomorrow when i run my first half-marathon.
my high school cross country coach used to remind us to 'breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth'.  i never caught on.  my mouth stays wide open sucking in every ounce of air it can hold.

he also told us to monitor our pace as we trained for races.  i always just ran as hard as i could off the mark.  

as my over-eager legs take off i have to remind myself that it's normal for the first 2 miles to leave me feeling completely out of shape.  my legs know what they want to do but my heart and lungs are a little slower to respond.  once they catch up i find my strength and endurance.

as much as i have tried to improve the pacing of my days,  i have also realized that running full-speed with lungs full of air, legs racing forward, and heart catching up, is who i am.  it's who i was created to be.  and so many times when i race into some experience in life and give it every bit of oxygen i can hold i feel more completely 'me'.  

there are a handful of things in this life that i feel created for.  running is actually one of them...writing is another.  when i allow time for these things in my life and i approach them my own way i feel a deep intimacy with my Creator.  

when we do the things God created us to do, in the ways He created us to do them we glimpse His glory in us.  there are unspeakable connections between a creation and its Creator that can't be explained but instead must be felt on an almost cellular level in the fibers of our being.

what about you?  are there parts of you that seem contrary to the way you think they 'should' be?  do you find yourself trying to be a little more of this or a little less of that?  do you fear there are parts of you that are 'too much' or 'not enough'?  

sometimes it's ok to be just who you are and trust that you were created that way for a purpose.  maybe the more we embrace the true creation we are...the more we will feel the embrace of our Creator.

for we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. {ephesians 2:10}