Wednesday, August 7, 2013

could this really be one of the hardest things i've ever done?

i want to confess that i have not been sharing all of my words with you.  {deep breath}
i've been keeping some on the side for a book i am writing. {big gulp}

writing hundreds of words for a blog post can lead to a shift in the way you think.  
writing thousands of words for the chapters of a book can lead to a shift in the way you live. 

over the past month i have felt a shift.

it was as if someone kept whispering this little suggestion in my ear.  
i'm embarrassed to say that for weeks i wrestled with whether or not i could actually follow-through with the suggestion.  the wrestling and my inability to give an immediate 'yes' was an affirmation that a change really did need to take place. goes...

365 days of no new clothes.

see - i told you it was embarrassing...ridiculous really.

here's the thing...i wouldn't consider myself a shopaholic.  i don't spend a lot of money on clothes, BUT...

i do love having 'new' things. {even if it's a $5 shirt on clearance at target}

part of this book writing process has me thinking about the kind of 'new' i really need...and the kind i don't.  i think i've been finding comfort and a false sense of joy in buying 'new' clothes that are completely unnecessary.  and let's not forget that i waste time and energy shopping for those clothes.  i think there may be things that would actually bring me true joy if i didn't allow for the instant gratification of a new pair of jeans {or whatever else i run across on the sale rack}.

so i'm giving up buying any clothes for a year.  

it's a first world problem, right?  i mean...nobody in the rural villages of haiti is struggling with how many trips to tj maxx they've made in the last month.  honestly, i am a bit disturbed knowing that this is going to be such a sacrifice for me.  it absolutely should not be.  i have a closet full of clothes.  of course i don't need to buy anymore.  but getting 'new' things is such a part of our culture and such a part of my own life personally that i don't think we realize how much it warps our perspectives.  and i think perhaps we are warped in ways that we can't even explain until we deprive ourselves of some of the excess we partake of on a regular basis.

clothes may not be your thing.  and believe me, they are not my only thing.  but they are a place to start.

what about you?  are you counting on 'new' in some part of your life where you shouldn't?  if so, are you willing to make a sacrifice...take a see what kind of bending and shaping of the spirit might take place?

if you want to join me for #365ofnothingnew - come on!  you can start your year on any day.  your 'nothing new' can be clothes or hair color or romantic relationships or whatever else might be getting in the way of the 'real new' you want to experience.  

and wouldn't it be fun if sacrificing something new freed up a little time and money we could give away to someone else?  my money budgeted for clothing will be going to support some amazing work being done at mission of hope in haiti {where i happen to be headed next week!}.  and the time i spent shopping will be spent writing that aforementioned book.  this is already sounding like a better investment of resources, isn't it?

my initial facebook post in which i tossed out the idea of doing this received almost as many comments as the post i made when my son was born 3 years ago.  that tells me that it struck a nerve with many of you.
so...are you in?
if so - leave a comment here or on my facebook page to let us know what your #365ofnothingnew will be...and let's do this new thing together!

it would seem our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak.  we are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea.  we are far too easily pleased.