Monday, October 27, 2014

NEW {day 27} :: renew

Over the past several months I have been inundated with ‘re’ words.  
When I read, when I pray, when I take a shower, when I sit in the preschool pick-up line…
're’ words keep coming to mind and I keep jotting them down and taking them in.

Here’s what I know about ‘re'.
It is a prefix indicating
The return to a previous condition
Repetition of an activity

And if we dig a little deeper we find…
word-forming element meaning "back to the original place; again, anew, once more," also with a sense of "undoing" 

Thursday, October 23, 2014

NEW {day 23} :: Lucy's diaversary

For you observant ones who have been following these 31 days closely you may have noticed there was no day 22.  So now you know - I'm not perfect.  I hope you enjoy 23...
Today marks one year.

I am terrible at remembering dates.  Actually, anything with numbers gets me all confused.

But I will never forget October 23, 2013.

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

NEW {day 21} :: the boo bag story

When we arrived home last night Lucy ran to the front porch to retrieve the package.  She had been waiting on it's contents for almost a week.  It wasn't a Halloween treat box from grandparents or something fun we ordered off of Amazon.  It was her new CGM - continuous glucose monitor.

A year ago we had no idea what a CGM was and we definitely wouldn't have seen Lucy bounding out of the car on flying feet to get her excited little hands on one.  A year ago we knew very little about Type 1 Diabetes.  Today we are close to being experts.

Monday, October 20, 2014

NEW {day 20} :: hide and seek

The first recorded incident of 'new gone wrong' took place in a garden.
A man and a woman stood amidst beauty and splendor freshly created.  Every single thing surrounding them was new, never before seen by human eyes.

Saturday, October 18, 2014

NEW {days 17 &18} :: the movie scene that started it all

Ten years ago in a movie theater in Scottsdale, my hardened heart broke wide open as I wept tears born of gratitude.
And so this 'new' journey began.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

NEW {day 16} :: better than better

Our God isn’t in the business of better.  He doesn’t do improved.  He specializes in one thing – new.  
We try so hard to get 'better' when God is standing there waiting to make us 'new'.
Isn't 'new' so much better than...well...better?

Has your car ever been totaled?  

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

NEW {day 15} :: surgery

{you may like to read part one of this post}
Have you ever clung so tightly to something that it becomes an extension of you?

You may not even realize that letting go is an option.
Then, suddenly, it is taken from you, pried out of your fingers.  You've held it so long that it feels like someone is performing a surgical procedure without anesthesia.  It hurts so terribly bad that you think you might die.

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

NEW {day 14} :: what i haven't told you

This is the part of our 31 days when I stop my song and dance to sit down across the table from you and look into your eyes.  I have something that can't go unspoken, unqualified, any longer.
Sometimes I tread cautiously around the truth that I have built my life upon.

Monday, October 13, 2014

NEW {day 13} :: the itch

The most important idea in advertising is ‘new’ – it creates an itch and then you put your product on it like calamine lotion.
{Donald Draper, Mad Men}
My 6 year old daughter, Lucy, gets eaten alive by mosquitos.  
It's unbelievable.  
A 10 minute jaunt in the backyard can leave her with a dozen bites up and down her legs.  She comes limping in the back door, bent over, scratching her legs furiously.  Sometimes she scratches so hard she bleeds.  I run her a warm bath with salt and baking soda and she can't get in there fast enough to finally experience relief.  She would do anything to stop the itch.

We will do anything to stop the itch...

Sunday, October 12, 2014

NEW {day 12}

I have this reminder of 'new' hanging in my house.
My talented friend, Arin, painted it.  You can find your own at her True Cotton Art website.

Friday, October 10, 2014

NEW :: {day 10} for the mamas

A few months ago I had such a deep and unusual pain on the left side of my head that I convinced myself it was a brain tumor.  Just as I was about to schedule a doctor's appointment a colossal zit showed it's head through my eyebrow.  Dodged a bullet.

Thursday, October 9, 2014

NEW {day 9} :: stop running

{for the beginning of this story click HERE}

My propensity towards relational perfectionism.
My inability to accept and offer grace completely.
My tendency towards running away instead of sticking it out.
My deep-rooted pride that kept me forever focused on what was best for myself.

As I turned my back on my marriage I had no idea that I would stand facing these and other dark places in my heart.  The damage there had been years in the making.

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

NEW {day 8} :: drowning

{If you missed part 1 of this post, you can read it HERE.}

It felt different to be surrounded by so many new things but the newness only danced tauntingly around me, never penetrating skin and bone to make a real difference in my heart.  As it turns out, I hadn't left the mess behind, I was carrying it with me.
The mess was me.
And every new thing this world dangled in my face couldn't clean me up and set me free.

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

NEW {day 7} :: face down on the floor

The moment I found myself face down on my closet floor avoiding the reflection of who I had become was days before I would literally walk out of the door on my husband.  I remember saying these words – ‘I don’t deserve to be loved.’
Everyone makes mistakes in marriage but I had never been good at messing up...especially when it came to relationships.

Monday, October 6, 2014

NEW {day 6} :: dig deep

The world conspires against our souls by blinding us to the depth and glory of their God-given design and tempting us to be satisfied with immediate gratification. 
{John Ortberg, Soul Keeping}
If we were to get quiet enough, still enough, humble enough to really listen to our souls this is what they might tell us…

Sunday, October 5, 2014

NEW {day 5} :: beautiful things

On Sundays I try to rest.
So - I will be relying on others to help me share 'new' with you this month.

Today it's Gungor.
If I could, I would send a sweet freckle-faced girl to each one of your front doors, Polaroid in hand, ready to capture you could be.

Today let's rest in the truth that we don't need to make anything new...we need to be made new by the One who can turn dust into a masterpiece.

Friday, October 3, 2014

NEW {day 3} looking for new in all the wrong places

When my son, Oliver, was 3 years old he would do this thing.  
He would cross his arms and purse his lips and say to me - Fine!  I’m getting a new family!

Guess when he would do that.

Thursday, October 2, 2014

NEW {day 2} :: pages

A few years ago my parents were in the process of moving and they were sick and tired of lugging around all my ‘stuff’.  We're talking boxes and boxes full of letters and photos and certificates for things like the presidential academic fitness award {I never understood…was that because I was smart or in good shape??}.  

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

NEW {day 1} :: inside out

Have you ever inadvertently trapped a cat in your car?
Saturday afternoon I pulled down a gravel drive in my husband's perfectly detailed car.  He says it's the only piece of his life remaining that he can keep clean and organized.  Everything else he shares with me and well...